Healing, Humanity, My Journey, Spirituality

First month on Maui: The Outside is the Inside is the Outside

You know the joke about the monk that gave the hot dog vendor $20 to “make him one with everything” and when asking for his change, was told “change comes from within?”

Maui is a volcano 15 miles from the most active “hot spot” on planet earth where lava continuously pours out of the depths of the earth to create new land. It’s the second Island in the tallest chain of mountains on Earth (measured from the sea-floor) in the middle of the largest expanse of Ocean. You could say the Hawaiian Islands are the “navel” of the Earth. The inside of the planet is always becoming the outside, more obviously here than on the continents.

Getting to and being on Maui has been a truly volcanic process, and the joke is on me. Any and all discrepancies and incongruities in the way I want to live and the way I actually live are in my face.

Despite Bren and I doing our absolute best to make letting go of California life a smooth transition, we both got stressed beyond our limits and got sick. The only thing more stressful I have ever done was help my wife die.

Nonetheless, we pulled it off and arrived at a beautiful, affordable RV with deck in a garden setting filled with birds, 4 minutes from the beach and 6 minutes from the most masterful bodyworker either of us have ever experienced. We bathed in the warm ocean and whale song, received transformational body healing, gorged on pineapple, papaya, passion fruit and amazing fish tacos and began to feel like we really did land in paradise!

Not so fast! We’d never lived in an RV so when it was a little smelly, we thought “well, no big deal, now we know we don’t want to live in an RV!” Then one night we came home from an amazing double healing session, feeling the best we had felt so far, and had to close all the windows because it was raining hard. And the RV stank. It was so bad we had to turn on all the fans just to be able to breathe enough to sleep. It was like sleeping in the last row of seats in a jet next to the engines and the toilets. We felt poisoned and betrayed and like we might get sick all over again.

Our landlords were mystified, said it had never been that bad for them, tried all sorts of deodorizers and pumped the tank but nothing worked. It wasn’t until I crawled under the RV naked and discovered a kloodgied grey water drain pipe was holding stagnant water and belching swamp gas back into the RV that I was able to create a proper angle to allow the water to drain and 90% of the stench cleared.

Another day Bren and I are waiting outside the port office to have a tow truck take her car to the mechanic shop. (Turns out the dock workers in California had killed both batteries in her electric car somehow, probably by leaving the key in for weeks). I started to complain about the petty tyrant that guarded the gate and had imperiously ordered us to “go away and come back at 1pm sharp.” At 1:03 the tow truck driver shows up and I go to start my car and it won’t start. It’s never done that once in 17 years. And it won’t start until Bren says “beg for mercy!” Boom, starts right up and has never been a problem again.

Here’s what I feel is really going on: We came here to live our dreams into reality and to share our process so others can see it is possible for them to do the same. We came here to start over and let go of all our old stories and our attachments to our tension and resentments about what appears to be “other peoples” negligence, stupidity, obstruction and unfairness. Any way I tell myself an old story that I am oppressed by anyone or any circumstance will IMMMEDIATELY become “truth” here until I see it as myself creating that “reality.”

If my dream is to live in harmony and abundance with the land, plants, animals and my neighbors, then that very intention will bring up every old attachment I have to my fear based stories of lack and oppression until I see that I am the source of creating my life that way. There is no “slack” here. You live your dreams or your nightmares. Fortunately, as soon as I see that, the good magic I came looking for starts to happen again.

Of course it takes time. The RV still smells. Bren’s car will be fixed with a new battery because it was still under warranty so it will be like a new car!……Life is a messy process and I can feel how living here is graduate school in how to live life. Every day brings new challenges and new gifts. Aloha spirit is a daily spiritual practice!!

Torus Photo courtesy of Rick Russell; Mathematical Creations

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Difficult Roads Often Lead to Beautiful Destinations

About a month ago, after I helped Bren through a difficult transition, she said “how do you always manage to get me through the eye of the needle like that?” Then and there, I realized that she had re-branded my practice!

So today the Sun was activating the 61st Gene Key “Inner Truth” (psychosis, Inspiration, Sanctity) in the 6th line (separation/self care/nature) and I took my psychotic Acupuncture exams on the windowless 7th floor of an office building with 5000 cars in the parking lot and 2 empty spaces to park in. To get in you have to get your palms and face photographed, have two forms of ID, turn out your pockets, roll up your sleeves and pull up your pant legs and put all your stuff except your ID and glasses in a locker. If you take a break, you have to do it all over again.

The 61 is a hexagram of the classic “Book of Changes” known as the “I Ching”, it’s the first one shown above. You’ll notice it’s “eye” is half as large as the second one.

I took the nearest locker which happened to be 27 and sat in booth number 27 for both exams.

The 27th Hexagram: “nourishment” (selfishness, altruism, Selflessness) is about generosity, starting with yourself. It’s “eye” is twice as large as the 61.

So I hope I have passed through the eyes of the two needles in the 64 hexagrams after a year of turning myself inside out to meet the requirements of the Hawaii state acupuncture board.

This last month of studying while trying to wrap up 42 years of living in the Bay Area and taking the test just 5 days before I leave because…well…it just worked out that way…

Was psychotic.

But perhaps now, I am a more humble and durable servant of the greater good? Perhaps I am sharper, wiser and have learned what keeping your equilibrium in the face of corruption really is.

50 “the cauldron” “gate of values” (corruption, equilibrium, Harmony) is my personal “evolution”. Through learning to trust in the essential goodness of all people, I am “designed” to function as an agent of social equilibrium. Corruption is transcribing the genetic need for social agreements through the lens of fear, which always results in (inadequate and often inappropriate) laws and outlaws. Trust in each other is the only path to social equilibrium.


I’m 61.

Time I matured? Does an innocent ever mature?

Hopefully I’ll be able to contribute to the people of the islands like I’ve never done anywhere else before.

May it be so.

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China Camp Land Clearing & Healing Ceremony

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On November 1st, “The Day of the Dead,” I’m going to be doing a land clearing and healing with my colleague Michaela McGivern at China Camp on the Marin County Bay Coastline.  The intention is to heal the wounds held by the land and make amends for the trauma and abuse that the coastal Miwoks and Chinese immigrants experienced there. I’m hoping it will help to restore harmony to the land and integrity to the ancestors of these peoples and ultimately ripple out that harmonious energy to the rest of the Bay Area. To that end, I’ve started a Kickstarter campaign to help with the costs.

Please take a moment to watch this short video on Kickstarter and if you would like to help support this project, please consider contributing within the next 48 hours. If we get a substantial start toward our goal, we believe it will help the project look like a winner with Kickstarter and they will give it more exposure to the public. It would also be great if you could share this link with your own network or someone you know who might be interested. Proceeds after expenses will be donated to the non-profit Friends of China Camp organization.

With gratitude!

October 5, 2018

A big thank you to our first 21 backers… we’re only 36 hours into our project and have already reached 20% of our goal!

Thank You!

Anonymous, Anonymous, Liana Forest, Judith Fenley, Anonymous, Marina Barnes, Shirley, Cari Alter, Christine Hodil, Kathleen Casey, Britta Fischlin, Anonymous, Anonymous, Anonymous, Barbara Bazemore, Anonymous, Anonymous, Anonymous,
Cheryl Fromholzer, Anonymous, The Creative Fund

October 6, 2018

WHAT IS THE MONEY FOR?   (An update on the China Camp Healing Project)

First of all, THANK YOU to the 21 people who have contributed $1,041.00 so far! We have had a VERY successful first 36 hours and have met our first goal of 20% funding in the first few days!! AND Thank You to the people who have asked this legitimate question!

MONEY, like it or not, is the symbol of the energy that actually gets things done in the world today. The Money you contribute to this project actually DOES amplify the energetic power of the intent to heal the land and release the human suffering stored in it. This is a very real (even if mostly unseen) way that you can contribute to a feeling of a little more well-being in the entire Bay Area.

We didn’t know it consciously when we launched this project that we would be addressing all of the ambivalence, confusion, judgments and resentments that we ourselves have about money, greed, poverty, debt and philanthropy, but that is exactly what Bren Taylor, Michaela McGivern and David Kitts are doing.

My business is named “GENEROSITY HEALS” and I will never trademark it for the obvious reason that it would not be generous! HOWEVER, Generosity must start with yourself, otherwise, in short order, you will have no money or energy to be generous with!!

So this is where I own that the primary reason I am running this campaign is to be paid fairly for my time so I can move forward my personal goals of living an abundant lifestyle that can model generosity toward all living things. Nowadays, this absolutely requires a flow of MONEY. Bren and Michaela also need to be paid fairly for the time and effort they put in. If you could add up the time we will spend on this project, you would see that we are aiming for only a modest stipend after expenses.

Another obvious reason it is important to own is that this is indeed a publicity campaign. We will not be able to be generous in any practical way if we stay hidden in obscurity.

We are also aiming to exceed our goal of $5000.00 because we would like to offer a significant contribution to “Friends of China Camp”: the organization that has preserved this historic and beautiful spot for all of us to enjoy.

This is the business model we aim to build with campaigns like this: Projects that aim to benefit the whole. Projects that shift how things feel. Projects that can provoke a change in people’s minds about what healing and progress really are. Projects that can generate an abundant living that allows us to be agents for real change in helping humans and all beings be safer and more abundant physically and in every way.

That’s why I can find the energy to face my inner demons of doubting my own motives, my very old very bad habit of assassinating my pride in my own abilities and my depression that I might fail in my objectives to be abundant AND benefit others.

When you contribute to a project like this, you are voting for a world where generosity is the guiding principle. In that spirit, we invite you give a little of your money to increase the flow of Love for every being.

Prosperity is an equal balance of giving and receiving: serving ourselves, our relationships, and the world in equal measure. From The Pearl Sequence, by Richard Rudd


October 8, 2018

INITIAL EVALUATION OF THE AREA   (An update on the China Camp Healing Project)

Energy Line

Here’s a map of the Park with a red line indicating where I found some kind of earth energy travelling from the peninsula China Camp is on, through to the East Bay approximately to the mouth of the Sacramento River. The Sacramento estuary is a confluence of fault lines of several subsidiary earthquake faults including the Rogers fault and the Hayward fault.

I also circled the areas where I found the most disturbing energy that seemed to be associated with human activity. Interestingly, the actual village wasn’t that bad.  The beach area south of the village was extremely dense and felt like it was the scene of over a hundred and fifty relatively sudden deaths from introduced disease. Up on the bluff in the parking lot was the next-most dense spot. It was part of the village years ago.

The only other place that was reallllly dense was a little ravine just above the town. That red fault line went right through it. There are two tiny ramshackle houses there.  Something very disturbing happened in one or both of them and they are smack in the middle of the turbulent flow of the disturbed earth energy line.


October 12, 2018

A LAND HEALING CASE STUDY ( An Update on the China Camp Healing Project)

I lived in a valley in West Marin for 15 years and I had known it needed some healing work for nearly 10 years. Because of the support of a truly open minded resident (with a big heart), I was finally able to put together a team of four gifted healers to do some healing for the Land. This is a brief description of a three month process.

Early in May I received a request through a client from a resident of the valley for some help with his land. Some Native Americans had turned down his invitation to hold ceremony on his land because they said it had been badly desecrated.  Because of some relationship conflicts, he was concerned for the welfare of his family members. I went to his place for a preliminary evaluation and told him what I already knew about the valley: that it had a large lake of negative energy under it that had been fed by years of trauma to the land (including the time the entire area was clear-cut to rebuild San Francisco after the earthquake) and the conflicts of the people that had lived there. I explained it was a very big project and that I’d need a team of four healers and at least three afternoons of work.  He was very generous and agreed to my estimate.

I had actually quite underestimated how much work was involved because there was a LOT of organizing, research and writing up reports, coordination of 5+ people’s schedules as well as the actual time spent clearing and healing the land of the entire valley and his property. I found topo maps of the valley, scouted out the perimeters of the lake and assembled my team. Coordinating the schedules of a minimum of five busy people (sometimes more) also added to the time it took.

On a Sunday in late June, we went through his house and immediately found several places where people had died (possibly violently). We were able to identify how some of them had died and determined that there was a mass grave nearby with 15 people in it from the times that European settlers in the valley had conflicts with the natives. There were still 5 ghosts hovering around his land and house.

These events were just a part of the negative energy feeding a large lake of negative energy under the valley and was affecting everyone on his property, most especially some of the more sensitive children.

This “lake” under the entire valley (and indeed a large portion of the even larger valley it connected to) was perpetuated by intelligent energy beings that live and thrive off of conflict, bloodshed, suffering, mental illness and negativity of any kind.

The lake can wreak havoc with the people, plants and animals that live there, causing strange behavior like animals being inexplicably unwilling to enter a room, or howling or excessive urinating, or plants failing for no reason and sometimes even death, like the time the huge bay tree fell on the tenant in the cottage behind the house of a valley resident.  I was severely injured falling on my scooter as I entered the perimeter of the lake the previous year.

We helped the ghosts to find their way to “the other side” and spent considerable time acknowledging and releasing the Karma of the tribal conflicts that went back as far as 7000 years. After we cleared the conflict karma, the house felt much easier.  We went outside and spent more time gathering information and guidance. There was still a rift, or fault line or perhaps an underground water course that cut right through the middle of the house that seemed to be associated with the lake of negative energy in some way.

All this took about 3 hours so we determined that we would meet again to conduct the ritual to drain the Astral lake of negative energy next Friday July 6th.  We indicated that the ritual to clear the astral lake was something that we should do with our full attention and without the extra task of attempting to include and protect others.

When we returned July 6th, we started our next three hour ritual at the land where I used to live to ask for assistance from the land entity that oversees the entire valley.  The entity was quite angry at the way the valley had been treated. In return for his help requested a water feature for the birds and wanted some blue stones “replaced” at the corners of the property.   We agreed to make a bird bath and placed large blue crystalline boulders (energetically) where he requested.  These actions seemed to mollify him and he  agreed to help us clear the Astral lake.

He informed us that intensely negative energy entities had been part of what had been feeding the negative energy of the lake for thousands of years due to bloodshed and conflict over using the land for personal gain and power. These entities had fed and maintained the lake that had been created by thousands of years of ethnic and tribal bloodshed over the control of the land.

The entities were some of the nastiest kind. They encouraged feuds, vendettas, reactive tit for tat conflict, violence, war and aggression when they were active.  This is the “food” they thrive on.  They can show up in human life as a family curse or major family dysfunction and the main person affected will be unable to separate their own reality from this family pattern.

Next, we moved to our sponsor’s land and found a spot to set up our altar in front of the house that was advantageously placed right at the middle upper end of the lake.  The water spirits under the land felt dishonored and ignored and they were part of inciting the conflict.  They felt polluted by blood that came out of the one part of the valley and mixed with the cleaner waters coming from the main creek.

We called in all the extra powerful protective entities we could think of to help protect us and all the residents of and visitors to the valley from the forces of the lake and the negative entities fueling it. We also called on the devas, plant, water and land entities to help us in restoring balance and harmony to the valley.  We were grateful to have their powerful help for this monumental work of land healing!

We sealed off the lake from the nearby, much larger lake (which we didn’t have permission to work with yet).  If we didn’t do this, the smaller lake would just refill over time, replenished by the larger one.  (See attached maps). To do this we created an energetic wall constructed of Universal Love and Light, the strength of ArcAngel Michael, Blue light, and the Silver Light of Peace and the energy of the Sphinx, sealed with the energy of Lapis Lazuli (a famous, semi-precious blue Egyptian stone).  It is 450 feet thick, 150 feet wide and 800 feet deep and it will remain in place indefinitely.

We then made offerings to the land of food, fruit, flowers, and everything the land wanted including energetic blood.  We invoked an ocean of light, blessed ourselves with Holy Water (pure spring water that had been empowered with prayer and healing intentions, and crystals on our altars for over two weeks.  We created four huge drains at the four “corners” of the lake (see attached map) and poured holy water on the ground and on the map of the valley, symbolically surrounding the astral lake. The power of the intentions in the holy water acted like a homeopathic remedy to drain the negative energy from the lake.  When the astral energy was gone, we sealed the drains and filled the lake with universal Love and light and other beneficial energies to prevent anything negative from returning.

In late July, we assembled for a final 3 hour ceremony with the family to heal the direct effects of the negative energies on their children and their relationships.  Then as a group, we set intentions for how to hold the land in sacred trust for the good of all humans, plants, animals, nature spirits of all kinds and all beings.

Interestingly, two months later a scary fire burned up the side of the mountain that forms the border of one side of this valley and started to descend into the valley in the night. Half the valley was evacuated. Thanks to the heroic efforts of the fire department and air support it did not burn more than the top of the ridge line leading into the valley.  We have no way of knowing, but maybe our healing had contributed in some way to the protection from the fire.

Arroyo Land Clearing


October 17, 2018

HEALING WORK IS ALWAYS INTERNAL (An Update on the China Camp Healing Project)

This is the first time I’ve ever run a crowdfunding campaign to support my efforts at healing the earth and our ancestors.  It’s one thing when you ask one or two persons to support your efforts financially and another thing altogether when you ask all your friends and acquaintances.  I have gratefully received some responses from people that have already provoked much healing.  The challenges we meet are often just as healing as the support we receive, if we can see them as the mirrors of our own doubts, fears and judgements.

With three colleagues, I recently completed an extensive clearing of a lake of negative energy from the entire Arroyo Valley where I lived for 15 years.  The financial support for that came from one abundant and generous family that lives in the middle of the valley. That task provoked within me many personal healing sessions to clear out my own fears, and coincided with getting an infection from a tick bite.  There seemed to be a clear connection between cleaning up my fear of my own personal power and releasing the trauma stored in the “Astral Lake” from abuse of power.

Now that I have embarked on a public campaign to fund my next project the healing work within me seems even more karmic and collective.

Yesterday I found myself to be inexplicably anxious.  Not suspecting much more than the usual inappropriate energetic relationships that happen unconsciously and occasionally, I was surprised to find that my imbalance was actually very ancient.

Healing Work is Always Internal

Way down at the bottom of my energetic structure, deep in the ground most of the time, the bottom wheel of my energetic elimination system was moving much too slowly.  I found that I was bogged down with the karma of many many past lives as either a perpetrator or a victim of genocide (caused both intentionally and through ignorance).  I had a huge load of unforgiven rage, grief, guilt and shame from those lifetimes.  That karmic baggage was clogging up the vents in the lower part of my core sheath that help the lowest elimination wheel release old trauma and energetic debris.

All I could think of to do was to send the magical Ho’oponopono chant of the Hawaiian Hunas into the lower part of my structure:

I Love You, I’m Sorry, Please Forgive me, Thank You.

Along with the energy of Surrender,  it worked to unclog the vents! I began to feel much lighter, calmer and more confident as the burden of karma was spun out into the void. It now had more affinity with the emptiness, now that it was no longer attracted by my attachment to it.

I have been somewhat apprehensive about addressing the wounds of our Chinese and Miwok ancestors on this spot.  I have no official standing in either of those tribes (unless you include my extensive studies in Chines Medicine).

I have realized however, that I can cleanly address the wrongs my own tribal relatives visited upon these native and immigrant ancestors, and this is how I intend to conduct the healing ritual.  It seems that part of the healing that appears to be about the land on that spot is actually beginning within my own structure.

If you are contributing to this healing process, may the healing and the blessings that come from it occur with in you as well!

Much Love,