Spirituality

Healing, Humanity, My Journey, Spirituality

Find My Light Within


I am often touched by people’s pain. I feel this is a very good thing because it reminds me that others feel vulnerable too. And I’ve had the bad habit of taking on the pain I feel from someone else sometimes.  Especially if I care about them or have some stake in their happiness. 

Because of the work I do, if I wake in the morning feeling depressed, anxious or burdened, I check to see if the feelings I’m having are really my own. My mind will always tell me it’s about me and give me all sorts of perfectly possible reasons why I might be feeling scared. Often feeling scared IS my true feeling, but not because of circumstances. It’s because I’ve taken in someone else’s pain in an attempt to help them feel better, so I feel safer.

Only problem is, it doesn’t actually benefit them or me at all.  

The habit was established in my very early childhood.  At 65, after 25 years of training myself to hold compassion for people without trying to modify them, I’m still finding lost, scared little infant parts of myself heroically trying to help other people feel better by absorbing their negative emotional state.  

I don’t do this nearly as much as I used to, but after a week where I spent 12 hours of visiting my Mom in her utter helplessness, I’ve been given the opportunity to embrace more of these little lost parts of myself. He’s not wrong or bad for reacting the way he does. As an infant it was all he could do that actually seemed to make a difference in how safe he felt. Temporarily. Since he lived only in the present, that reaction became a habit. It didn’t matter to him that he gradually began to feel worse more of the time.

Turns out, taking in someone’s else’s pain only dims my inner light. It doesn’t enhance their light.  It doesn’t help them find their light.  

The way I understand it now, my light comes from taking in other’s light, but only the frequencies of their light that actually nourish and build my light. My spiritual energy body already automatically operates this way, filtering the energy from every other being through a receptor just for them in my “Soul Membrane” (the edge of my energy structure.) Then there is a sampling circuit that instantaneously introduces “outsider” light to my inner self-light and says “YES!” to the frequencies that build my light. This process could be thought of as spiritual digestion I guess. When I am connecting to other beings of light this way, my light increases, making more of it available to anyone who might benefit from it.

Taking in someone’s pain and suffering only temporarily reduces the pain they are feeling and over time increases the backlog of unprocessed pain in both people. It may come from sympathy but, in my experience, it’s always to help me feel better in the moment. When I unconsciously do this at this stage of my life, I feel much worse in my own body almost immediately.

The soothing, invigorating, boundless Light of Love I’m looking for is already within every cell of my body thanks to the amazing tiny bacteria known as mitochondria that metabolize carbon compounds. The light they release shines brighter than the surface of the Sun. It’s in the center of my soul where the perfect frequencies of light from all beings combust into my unique pattern which radiates out to the far corners of the universe and beyond.

So when I get up feeling awful, if I find I’ve taken in someone’s pain, I identify where I have stored it and I give it back to them. It is, after all, their process of embracing their shadow to find the gifts in it and not mine to take on or try to change for them. 

Then I welcome the energy of the little infant self that unconsciously absorbed the other person’s darkness… I let him know he’s brilliant and precious and that he no longer needs to hold someone else’s “bad” to feel safe. I show him the huge beautiful light, love and warmth inside and give him a huge hug. Finally I celebrate having released more of the shadow of taking on problems that are not mine and bask in the resultant confidence and trust I’ve given myself.

Healing, Spirituality, Wellness

The Template: Our Cosmic Nervous System


Listening to Zach Bush and Richard Rudd today on the Deja Blue podcast, I just had my mind blown (again) by new research Zach shared on the nervous system of the gut. It triggered a quantum leap in my understanding of the anatomy and function of the human spiritual nervous system known as the Template. 

It turns out humans have the most diverse gut micro-biome of any species (especially if we eat diverse and wild foods from our natural environment.) That blew my mind, but what really knocked my socks off was this. There is now micro-imaging technology that has proven that some of the afferent nerves that inform our brains what is going on in our intestines actually stick THROUGH the barrier membrane of the intestinal lining INTO the messy contents of our gut! The massive concentration of neurons in our gut far outweighs the ones in our brains and is getting critical information from the teeming microbiome of bacteria, viruses, parasites, fungi, and who knows what else living in our poop!  

So it’s possible that our “gut hunch” and our “emotional intelligence” quite literally comes from being able to listen to the intelligent communities of micro-organisms living in our feces.  That old sixties hippie saying “Get your shit together” wasn’t just stoned inspiration. The genetic information and potential for mutation that can adapt to any stress come from the foundation of life itself: the single and multi-celled organisms that live in the soil and the air and waters of the earth and in our gut.

In many ways, my “favorite” spiritual anatomy system is the “Template.” My teacher gave it that name because it was her intuition that it holds space for the physical body inside our spiritual egg-shaped energy structure in between incarnations.  The Template is our Cosmic Nervous System. It is seamlessly integrated with our biological nervous system. I’ve always loved that the template ends (or begins!) at the very edge of our spiritual energy structure as hair-like villi that extend from the edge and connect us to every other living entity and intelligent energy in the cosmos. Now I know that it extends into our micro-cosmos as well.  WOW!!!

So, just like the villi on the membrane of every cell are the intelligent interface that connects them to their environment, informing the cell of nutrients to take in and toxic substances to exclude, the villi of the Template informs the interactive intelligence of our soul at the “Soul Membrane” with its cosmic environment, allowing us to filter infinite energies for the most nourishing frequencies of light.  As energy beings, we eat light. The light that shines from every other being. 

Modern physiological research has now confirmed that our nervous system and our digestive system are working together to determine which nutrients and genetic information to absorb and what to allow to pass through as compost and food for other life. The Template has the same function, working seamlessly with our spiritual elimination system to say “YES!” to the frequencies of light that are the most nourishing and harmonious with our current evolutionary stage, and to allow the rest to pass by or be released effortlessly.  

It is the ingenious design of biological life to create intelligence by enclosing proteins and water in a semi-permeable membrane, pierce it with sensors that connect it to the environment and allow it to build more and more innovative protein structures that use light to perpetuate more life. This brings me to another mind-blowing thing Zach shared: That the light energy released in our cells from carbohydrates and fats by the tiny bacteria called mitochondria shines brighter than the surface of the sun.

We are quite literally, already “light beings”! We are interwoven with light and life in the most Cosmic and Mundane way from the light of universes, galaxies and suns, to light from the bacteria that live in our cells. 

The Template has another magical capacity that is associated with its ability to say yes to nourishing frequencies of light from all the energy beings in the universe. It can sample everything about anyone without taking in anything that isn’t nourishing from them. 

This capacity is called “The Template Echo” because of the natural discernment of the Template Cosmic Nervous system. This “Yes Circuit” only says “yes” to nourishing frequencies of light. It is located just under the edge of the Soul Membrane and also inside the “Core Sheath” which is the conduit of the Core: your unique spirit frequency passing through your egg-shaped energy body vertically, aligning with your physical brain and spine.

Holistic impressions from any being come in through the web of template nerve fibers at the edge of your soul membrane, bounce off the core sheath and any frequency that is not accepted bounces right back out again just like a sonar echo. 

Learning to use this capacity consciously is revolutionary because it is distinct from the natural merging and blending of our electromagnetic fields. The Human Electromagnetic field or aura is the expression of our physical vitality and our unique spirit frequency emanating from our core and our DNA. It is designed to both broadcast to and absorb electromagnetic energy from other physical beings.

When we can remain in the awareness available from our Cosmic Nervous System, at the edge of our Soul Membrane, the exchange of electromagnetic energy with other physical beings is still filtered through our natural discernment: the “Yes Circuit” of our Template. Everything about someone is available to our expanded senses, yet we still can allow frequencies that are not beneficial to us to release effortlessly. 

This brings us back to our poop.  As we all know, if we can’t easily release what our intestines do not absorb, we become sick and clogged. The Template is our Cosmic digestive system and just as our physical digestive system is also part of our elimination system, the Template can only truly nourish us with light when indigestible frequencies are released effortlessly by the “yes circuit” and our energy Elimination System. But that is a topic for another blog. 

Thanks for reading this!  If you’d like to experience the template and the distinction between it and the human aura, stay tuned for online and in person classes coming soon!

A single-cell atlas of nerve cells in the gut reveals web of connections | Broad Institute

The Central Nervous System and the Gut Microbiome – PMC

Healing, Hedonistic Sustainability, Holistic Living, Humanity, My Journey, Spirituality

Eye of the Needle: Holistic Living


It’s the micro-movements in the smallest places that change everything. 

Back in October of 1978 when I awoke from surgery after my near-death car accident-initiation, I found myself wanting to live my life. For the first time I could remember, I thought “there must be some reason for me to be here” and I decided to determine what that was.  It was the tiniest of shifts in attitude from “let me out of here” to “well, I don’t know what I’m going to do but I’ve going to be healing from this for a long time, so I’ll study healing.”  I had one person’s feedback when I gave them a massage before I had any training at all: “you have good hands” and I decided to build on that.

44 years later with 35 years in practice under my belt as a holistic health provider and Licensed Acupuncturist, I’m still learning new things. One of latest and best is from a brilliant local savant “Manual Medicine” practitioner who calls himself “Suntah”.  He showed Bren and me how if you want to release an entire muscle group, all you have to do is release the smallest muscle in the group. A great example is the Psoas minor: if you can persuade this thin, small muscle in the iliopsoas group to let go of it’s locked up contraction it can release the whole muscle bundle. This muscle group, along with the Piriformis and Gluteus are responsible for a majority of chronic low back pain.

Holistic Health is based on the commonly accepted idea that we live in a fractal Hologram. This means that we are inextricably part of a much larger body: Humanity, Earth, the Solar system, the Galaxy and the Universe are all one body. All expressing infinitely diverse aspects of itself through the branching of fractal experimentation. Mathematically, fractals are simple equations. By changing the smallest components of these equations, you can create the immense variety of form, starting with sacred geometry and moving into the infinite complexity of living beings. 

If this premise is true, then our culture, our society and the neighborhood we live in are  part of our body.  What happens to our bodies, our emotions, the animals, air, land and water of our neighborhood happens to us as individuals.  Witnessing current events, it seems to me that we are we are in a chaotic cycle of vast cultural and physical change.  It’s no wonder that there is resistance to any change, it’s all too much too fast, yet change we must.  

The way the economy and the laws of our town and our Island are operating is locking up the energy moving through the people who live here. Essentially we are experiencing what could be seen as the inevitable extreme of colonialism: Every nice location in the world has too many vacation rentals and second/third homes which people live in for a few weeks or months at a time. Air BnB gives more modest income homeowners the opportunity to profit from this tendency, but the growth of the tourist industry without connection to a higher vision of the future is not the path to prosperity for all. Perhaps in places like Sedona Arizona, there is enough surrounding space for differing economic classes to live and this pattern can sustain itself for a while longer.  But on a tiny island dependent on serving visitors, there will eventually be nowhere to live for any other class except the super-rich and tourists.

So, I don’t know about you, but I feel like I need some breathing room in the culture we find ourselves in, in this tiny town on this tiny island in the middle of the vast Pacific Ocean.  I need to feel safe and loved and appreciated, just as we all do. I’m well past the need for the validation of my skills and ability to make a difference in somebody’s life.  I can see evidence for that every day, but one of the things that is constricting my sense of safety and approval is the housing situation. 

Both Bren and I marvel at how much we have to work everyday to consciously relax the stress that literally contracts the muscles of our bodies and makes breathing feel tight. Fear is collective. There is no way I can just release my own fears and feel better.  For me anyway, I have to acknowledge that I am feeling everybody’s fear (and all contractive or expansive emotions) before I can let go of the holding in the precise place in my body, with it’s personal history of trauma, that will allow me to relax more completely for another few hours. Really, that’s all I seem to get these days before the next internal/external contraction requires personal attention to release!

One of the things I help my clients to consider, especially if they are very ill, is that they are contributing the possibility of healing and wellness to the collective body of humanity by pursuing their own wellness.  Similarly, when we received our blessings and welcome to Maui from Aloha ambassadors Lei’ohu Ryder and Maydeen Iao, Bren asked Lei’ohu what was “the best way we could make a contribution to everyone here?”.  Her answer was “even your breath is a contribution!”  

The core question of how to live in prosperity according to the Gene Keys Golden Path is “How do I best serve the Whole?”  The simplest principle of creating prosperity is to dedicate one’s personal initiative and growth to the well being of the community of life.  Applying the same holistic logic to my own personal healing process I came to a radical realization: it is inevitable that some of my efforts to relax my personal body and create ease in my life MUST have a socially perceptible impact on my neighborhood. In order for a more complete, healthy physical relaxation and easier breathing to be possible in my own body and everyone else’s, some of my efforts must contribute to relaxing the constricted energy in the community I live in. 

So here is the radical, tiny change we are proposing that could tip the scales in favor of everyone breathing easier, feeling safer and more appreciated in our communities.  We are looking for likeminded people from all economic strata, (starting with our own economic status) to be willing to risk disregarding collective standards of behavior.  If Bren and me can succeed in placing a luxuriously appointed yet affordable (to us) tiny home in a willing landowner’s spacious back yard, it might tip the scales toward creative ways of easing a chronic worldwide problem of lack of diversity and sustainability in neighborhoods.  

Our proposal is this: we ease up one tiny corner of the lack of housing constriction in our community by placing an entirely self-contained, off-the-grid, beautifully appointed tiny home on wheels in an existing neighborhood. We want to enhance someone’s property.  Preferably someone who also wants to live here permanently and contribute to the well being of everyone on the island by showing how diverse living styles can co-exist.  

Once we find a place that feels relatively stable we can begin to experiment with the sustainable technologies that can make Island life more self sufficient without sacrificing the level of beauty and comfort that each individual person needs.

If we can inspire a few people in our general economic strata to secure homes by showing them how we did this, we can begin to change the way everyone thinks about diversity in housing.  If we can show that the lifestyle we are creating uses less resources and contributes more luxury, more beauty, food, water and goodwill in the community for all economic lifestyles, we will have created a HUGE change out of a tiny one.

Healing, Humanity, My Journey, Spirituality

Distractions & Limitations


When I was in my thirties, I was goaded into exploring what was going on inside myself by my partner at the time who said to me “for someone who is so curious about everything, why have you explored so little about your own motivations?” That was when I met a very important person in my life: David Mars PhD., a Licensed Clinical Therapist with an emphasis on somatic awareness.

One of the most amazing breakthroughs in my life was in an “Authentic Movement” session with perhaps a dozen or so of David’s clients.  Suffice it to say that Authentic Movement has a LOT of very clear rules about how to maintain the safety and confidentiality of all participant’s experience. At the time, I chafed at this a little.  I was still very attached to my rebellion against what I felt were unreasonable rules and very depressed by years of overdosing cannabis to both numb and stimulate myself because of the pain and tedium of my life.

You have to close your eyes as you move in Authentic Movement, and you are witnessed by half of the class that is not moving. I began to explore the wall of the room.  Pushing up against it, shoving my self into it, banging it, resting on it, slumping into the angle between the wall and the floor and allowing myself to feel the full weight of my despair about the limitations of my life.  

Something shifted in me and I began to feel the support of the wall and the floor.  I felt the beginnings of the comfort that comes from accepting what I cannot change.  I began to become clearer that walls and rules can help me to help me determine what I CAN change: I can change my attitude about myself and I can let go of perceptions, belongings, people and even some rules that do not enrich my life or someone else’s life.  I can let go of my distractions. 

The clutter clearing Queen Marie Kondo is incredibly popular for a very good reason. If some thing, feeling or person is not bringing you joy or serving a useful purpose in your life, then it is a burden and you will feel energized and liberated by letting go.  The stuff, people and rules we cling to for safety, love and recognition are deeply limiting to the unique expression of who we really are.

Human lives are full of distractions: flashy, scary, stimulating dramas and traumas both real and staged, personal and collective. As long as we are distracted by the next shiny object, scary event or personal drama, we are deeply unaware of how much we are limiting ourselves with the mountains of physical, emotional and legal stuff we cling to. 

Limitation and Distraction are the major control mechanisms of our society (collective mind) at this time.  Of course threats and application of violence are still powerful deterrents to socially sanctioned behavior but distraction has largely replaced brute violence on a day to day basis collectively as a way of imposing limitations on what is socially acceptable behavior and compulsions for what we must do to be acceptable. The poster boy for the “social control science” of propaganda is the inventor of “Public Relations”: Edward Bernays (Sigmund Freud’s nephew).

Collectively, we are at the tail end of a cycle of authoritarian rule that is now applied through the mass media available in the palm of nearly every person on the planet.  The last two years have proven just how powerful it is to deliver fearful “news” and “facts” of dubious veracity to individuals, using endless repetition until they become “truth”. Meanwhile, the world economy has been reorganized and centralized into the hands of a very few powerful individuals and corporations that are beginning the process of unifying worldwide governmental responses and policies through this mass distraction process.  This is their version of the “new world order”.

At the same time the intelligence of the living beings known as the Solar System and the Universe are moving the Earth and all her inhabitants in to a cycle of learning to rely on inner knowingness. You can see it happening already. At the same time the effort to unify control of behavior worldwide is peaking, more and more people are letting go of the fears that have run their life, moving away from the people that insist that they be sick in the same way that they are in order to win their love, and learning to follow the “natural laws” that support the life of all beings. 

The extremity of the limitation and distraction we are experiencing collectively is pushing some of us to choose more carefully exactly what stuff we want to live with, who we want to live with and what we determine internally to be the right way to live for ourselves that enhances the harmony of our lives. This is a brand now way of creating order out of chaos. Instead of imposing ideas and limitations on others in order to make ourselves feel safer, we choose to support each other in finding exactly how and with whom we want to live.  

When we trust in the unique contribution of everyone in the groups we choose to join, the group becomes much more powerful and effective at thriving and contributing it’s unique offerings to others.

Healing, Humanity, Spirituality

Uniquely Collective


Everything about a human body, including the spiritual anatomy, is completely collective. 

The assertion the “We Are One” is demonstrably true. Every cell in every being on earth is created by the same 64 genetic code program from the same material elements from this planet: minerals, gasses, organic compounds and water. The same photons from the Sun and the same neutrinos from the same universe and the same multiverse.

We are literally inhabiting a vehicle that is “on loan” to us as we journey through the illusory element we perceive as time. It’s even always the same “now”.

Yet a third of the genetic code creates the sense of individuality in our body types and personalities. That’s because change happens one person at a time. The universe gives everyone uniqueness, not just because all possibilities must be tried on the journey to a perfected form that is pretty much immortal. It gave us individual response-ability to transform the expressions of the genetic code that lead to decay and destruction.

It is each of us individually taking on the willingness to witness the dark deeds that have been done to living beings and seeing that evil, death and destruction are as much of the path to perfection as constructive actions that support the health of all life.  By being open to the whole messy process of evolution, the deeply healing energies of the Siddhi’s of the 64 genetic imperatives trickle into the world.

The individual is where the only leverage is on the evolutionary path to a perfect spirit in a perfect form that does not decay or deteriorate.  Ironically, there is nothing to do or choose.  The choice is only to delay or hasten the process by resisting or not resisting the experience of the collective suffering you came here to transform with your Compassion, Mindfulness and Forgiveness.

It is the individual that points out the flaw in seeing flaws. It is the individual that challenges fear-based entrenched laws that actually destroy the health of the collective rather than protect it.  It’s the individual that can see that understanding the viewpoint of those they disagree with doesn’t mean that their own viewpoint is invalid. It’s the individual that can allow other’s strident upset while staying open the to possibility for all concerns to be met.

The collective can only share its protection, its food, its experience of the past and its ability to predict patterns that will continue into the future. Obviously these are critical for the survival of the species, but it is the individual that can make the space for transformation of wounds that keep humans as a whole suffering in the same destructive patterns.  And all an individual has to do is witness what is going on without judgement.  That is what creates the space for understanding and farsightedness to hold to a vision of the future that supports every form of life everywhere.

It is only the individual that can empower the collective to hold paradoxical and diametrically opposed points of view until the common goals are perceived instead of the dividing differences.

Then of course we will realize completely there is only one being.

Healing, Humanity, My Journey, Spirituality

Fear is Safe (part 2)


Reclaiming Inner Authority

“Fear is Safe” is a direct quote from Richard Rudd, founder of the Gene Keys, but here is another: “Fear does not feel safe, but it is safe to feel fear”.  This is the “Eye of the Needle” I am negotiating right now.  How do I personally maintain calm when everyone is still in an elevated state of alarm most of the time?

Bren and I have been “sheltering in place” in one of the most beautiful places you can imagine. We can swim any time we want and our backyard is a tropical paradise. Yet even here on Maui, it feels more like “lockdown” sometimes.

I really have to watch my attitude to avoid the old bad habit of shaming myself for feeling oppressed by this situation.  Shame as a knee jerk reaction just distracts me from my inner knowingness with an addiction to stress, self-recrimination and sensory overload. Thankfully, this is now quite boring to me and I’d much rather feel my pain and move through it than find ways to go numb so I can tolerate existence.

It’s quite extraordinary to be on a zoom conference with people from around the world and realize, that with few exceptions, we are all experiencing some version of the same restrictions hastily imposed by “the authorities” we empower to protect us.  And some version of the reactions and responses from our fellow citizens, some of which are very uplifting and some of which can feel even more repressive than the rules.

If ever a situation was more clearly collective, I’ve never heard of it before. Yet I still take it personally sometimes. Because I am human, my fears stir up my traumas from my past. All the ways in which I agreed not to be true to myself in order not to upset some volatile someone who had control over my food and safety and approval.

Actually, I believe this is what is happening at a collective level right now.  The World Wide Web is facilitating a deep cleansing of the collective traumatic scars of humanity. In Sanskrit these are called Sanskaras, and in the revelations of the Gene Keys and Human Design, they are seen as being stored in the “Non-Coding” or “Junk” DNA that makes up at least 70%  of all the DNA of every single cell in our body.

To be clear: the COLLECTIVE traumas are held in our own cell’s DNA. This means that what we are experiencing collectively is deeply and inextricably PERSONAL.  Everything that humanity has been through is stirred up right now for each and every one of us.  It’s quite overwhelming and it’s no surprise that every possible response from polemic raging to deep compassion is clearly on display in the social media. 

I feel quite deeply that this is ultimately a great thing because many more of us are becoming aware that humanity is actually one single awareness on a global level.  Yet this begs the question: what do we do with all this fear that feels so oppressive, that comes from such a long, long history of unspeakable trauma that just goes on and on?

Things were relaxing somewhat around here and we went down to the shore to watch the sunset for the first time in weeks.  We sat down to rest just for a while (big no no) and looked up to see a drone hovering over us.  We hastily got up and went home and we both felt so triggered that we literally dropped into a “morbid depression”! 

After passing out for 3 hours and getting up, determined to be the one in charge of my own vibration, here’s an answer that came out of  me exploring the heart of my feeling of oppression.  May it be useful for you, or at least stimulate something healing for yourself in your own way!  I call it “Defusing the Mindfield”. 

I also created a healing protocol for this that is available in my free Thursday classes or by request.  It is really a very simple procedure but it requires a lot of explanation that I will include here. The procedures offered in the class are a prerequisite for this one, so I request that you attend a class or contact me personally if you wish to learn how to do it.

Defusing the Mindfield

What I recently realized is that whether or not the current situation is manufactured or just arose out of the unsustainable chaos of world-wide consumerism, the ultimate “response-ability” is mine and mine alone. The “truth” is probably somewhere in between these extremes.

It doesn’t make any difference if there are “super-intelligent, evil beings” that are manufacturing this crisis (and possibly the virus) in order to consolidate power and real resources and using mass surveillance to control us through our fear. “They” still have zero power over my ability to respond. 

Alternatively, if this is just some naturally arising “unseen dangerous pathogen” that will kill us all if we don’t respond drastically to beat it back, I still have my “response-ability”.  The outside is the inside, no matter what I believe, and I always have a choice about how to respond.

Here is the contemplation that is the basis for “Defusing the Mindfield”:

In Human Design and the Gene Keys, six of the Genetic Archetypes represented by the 64 Hexagrams of the ancient text of the I Ching are specifically located in the realm of the human mind and have been a critical part of our evolution as a self-reflective species.

HD and the GK’s also state that for the last 400+ years, humans have been evolving our emotional system in the Solar Plexus as the new location for a more advanced and all-inclusive form of awareness. We are learning to rely on a way of navigating reality that includes our instincts, our self-reflection AND our absolute knowledge of unity through the Ocean of Emotion.  When this crisis threw us back into “survival mode”,  all our mental fears came up in the form of anxiety.  Anxiety is worrying about the future based on what happened in the past.

Archetypes are just energies that we can call upon.  We can evoke their fears, or their gifts or their divine powers. That’s how powerful we really are.

The mind is extremely influential because it filters what “reality” is for the rest of the body. Anxiety puts the body in lockdown mode: Your self-awareness retreats to the amygdala which jacks up your adrenaline, shuts down functions that are “non-essential for survival” such as digestion, regeneration and repair of tissues, elimination of toxins, and immune responses to internal challenges. (Sound familiar?) What’s more, even if the trauma is just a memory, the body reacts as if the trauma being recalled is “happening now”, so remembering past collective traumas such as the holocaust can actually put us into severe physiological distress.

This procedure is for the purpose of “defusing” the fear-based states of mind that compress your Third Eye, prevent you from receiving your higher knowing, seeing and hearing, and compromise your health and well-being. I “saw” these fears as a kind of “Crown of Thorns” created by 6 “screws” that compress our mental viewpoint and the third eye chakra from all sides.  I created the procedure using the metaphor of “loosening the fear-screws”.

Description of the “Six Mental Anxieties”

(and the higher frequencies contained in them) I have included the traditional I Ching numbers and names of the Gene Keys outlined here:

Hexagram (Gene Key) 47 “Oppression”

“Oppression” is the quality of mental fear that comes out of the collective Sanskaras stored in the “junk DNA”.  It’s a victim posture that reinforces the need to repress all memories from the past in order to be able to “soldier on” in the present.

I see this as a screw that tightens down and compresses the view of the Third Eye Chakra from the upper right corner of the skull.

“Transmutation” is the “gift” frequency of the same genetic archetype.  It’s a deeply alchemical quality of witnessing the dark traumas of humanity that can perceive the immense value that comes from learning “How we DON’T want to feel and behave” towards one another and all living things so that we can see “how we DO want to behave” and it creates a safer and more loving world for all beings. 

All gifts are mutations of the “shadow” states. They are the unstable process of transforming the relatively stable shadow state into the stable state of the “Siddhi” or Divine Power of the Archetype.

“Transfiguration” is what happens when the collective wounds stored in your genetic lineage are all allowed to be “seen” and thereby transformed.  Your “junk DNA” is cleansed and the human body can mutate into something entirely new that can transform light into matter rather than eating other forms.

The Siddhi is obviously “in the future”, yet from the point of view of awareness, it has already happened because there is really only one “now”. So we can call upon the power of ‘Transfiguration” and every other Siddhi “now”, to help us raise our vibrational tone out of fear.

Hexagram (Gene Key) 24 “Return”

“Addiction”.  When we are unwilling and unable to witness our own trauma or our portion of the collective traumas, we try the same old strategies over and over again to drown out the pain, only to have it return redoubled.  We become addicted to the drama of shutting ourselves down and then feeling victimized by a world that “just won’t let us be ourselves.”

I see this as a screw that tightens down and compresses the view of the Third Eye Chakra from the center top of our skull.

“Invention” is a witnessing posture that arises when we are willing to pause and actually feel what we are feeling: where it is in our body, what it does to our breathing, what emotions arise when we feel the trauma.  When we pause, an entirely new response can arise to any feeling or situation that comes up.

“Silence” is the clear spaciousness of the mind that has realized that at its’ purest, it is just witnessing.  Any thoughts and commentary are just temporary sounds in the true silence of the witness.

Hexagram (Gene Key) 4 “Youthful Folly”

“Intolerance”. When none of our strategies to avoid our own pain work anymore, we assign the blame to people or groups outside of ourselves and become intolerant of anyone’s opinions that don’t match up to our own favorite collections of “facts”. Ironically, this only reinforces our fears because we have shut down our own scientific inquiry, leaving us feeling victimized and living in a very small box created by our own need to control our environment.

I see this as a screw that tightens down and compresses the view of the Third Eye Chakra from the upper Left side of the skull.

“Understanding” arises when we are able to cultivate a witnessing posture that can “see all sides of an argument” without the need to shut down either your own or the other points of view.  It creates room to come up with collective solutions to issues that embrace common values instead of focusing on differences. It also allows you to witness your own unseen points of view you have that you censored out of fear.

“Forgiveness” is one of the 7 great superpowers of Grace that heals all wounds, right back to the original traumas of the human race.  It erases the need to have “power over” anyone or anything since it reveals that all life is actually one awareness that runs through all existence, so any trauma inflicted on anything is trauma inflicted on yourself, thus all forgiveness is self-forgiveness.

Hexagram (Gene Key) 11 “Peace”

“Obscuration” is what we experience when we suppress the experience of our desires.  Any thought, feeling or desire which we avoid facing, creates an accumulative shadow that blocks our highest aspirations from ourselves and others.  It is the repressed, yet untamable desires that hide our greatest creativity.  We relegate our desires to the darkness of the closet for fear that we are unacceptable if we allow them into our awareness at all. When we do this we cloak ourselves in obscurity and live as a victim without access to the juice that really powers our dreams.

I see this as a screw that tightens down and compresses the view of the Third Eye Chakra from the lower left corner of the skull.

“Idealism” is a witnessing posture that can see that all desires arise from the desire to be free of the suffering caused by needing to maintain any identity; good, bad or indifferent. Interestingly, releasing the need to be acceptable to either yourself or anyone else allows for uniquely creative perspectives to arise through you that enrich everyone and would not be available through any other source.

“Light” is the pure quality of the mind that exists free of identification with form or emptiness.  It is the realization that all beings are simply the passage through which matter is endlessly converted into energy.

Hexagram (Gene Key) 43 “Breakthrough”

“Deafness” is the victim state that occurs when we feel that “everyone else’s fears and needs are preventing me from hearing my own inner truth”.  We become so focused on worrying about feeling unfulfilled or “knowing that I am doing something unique to me”, that we completely ignore that our periodic states of “depression” can actually silence our minds enough that we can hear the voice of our true creativity.

I see this as a a screw that tightens down and compresses the view of the Third Eye Chakra from underneath the skull, deep in the back of your throat.

“Insight” is the witness state that allows you to hear your own inner voice.  It is “Clairaudience”: the ability to trust your own inner knowing that floods out of your unique community of cells. You still hear all the noise generated by collective fears, but you don’t let it influence you.  Instead, you wait for your knowing to arise, whole and intact, from the empty space created by your waiting instead of your doing.

“Epiphany” is another of the 7 great superpowers of Grace that arises when you surrender so completely into not-knowing and deep listening that you have the sudden experience of Self as the awareness that permeates all your cells and all beings and all of existence and emptiness in the multi-verse.  It permanently opens your heart and reveals that “there are no others”, even though the way you arrive at this conclusion will be utterly unique to you.

Hexagram (Gene Key) 17 “Following”

“Opinion” Is the need to assemble the available “facts” of a situation in a way that makes you feel more secure, and then defend your point of view.  It literally shuts down your ability to see beyond your own version of reality.  It’s the proverbial “closed mind” and it’s the victim state that either buys into the collective version of the truth at the expense of any sense of self-knowledge or tries to oppose every opinion other than your own.

I see this as a screw that tightens down and compresses the view of the Third Eye Chakra from the lower right corner of the skull.

“Far-Sightedness” is the gift state of the pure witness that sees every point of view at the same time without having to resolve the oppositions and paradoxes. It shines through all self-serving Dogmas.  It is the capacity of “Clairvoyance” which is truly open-hearted and open-minded seeing.  It has the capacity to witness spherically, in every direction at once and throughout all time.  It is the opened “third eye” that sees through the unity-knowingness of the solar plexus and then organizes the logical mind’s ability to recognize patterns that predict the way the future will unfold.

“Omniscience” is the stable, pure witness state of the mind when it is freed from the need to defend its’ separate existence.  It is one of the great healing superpowers of Grace that descends into human beings to heal denial. When you can see throughout time, you can see in great detail that everything that has ever happened and is ever going to happen is all a part of the divine plan that leads to perfection, so you have no need to defend any “truth” you may believe in, nor do you have any need to deny anyone else their “truth”. 

I think you can see how these fears in particular are extremely activated by the current crisis and how trapped you can feel if you believe the fears are real.  To receive the procedure to “loosen the screws” please contact me or attend a free class.

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A Free Class for Our Times: Energetic Support for your Electro-magnetic Field and your Immune System


Dates: Thurs April 30th, Thurs May 7th and Thurs May 14th – attend one class or as many as you like.

Time: 12noon Hawaii (Convert to your time zone here)

Cost: Free – donations gratefully accepted

It is my contention that the contagious nature of this epidemic is directly aggravated by the increase in microwave radiation in our human environment.  That and the fact that we are updated with horrifying news every few minutes if we keep looking at our phones.

I can only modify how much I look at my own phone. I can’t do anything about world events or powerful people bent on exposing everyone to untested technology for profit. But I CAN offer energetic support from Sacred Anatomy Energy Medicine™ that can help you negotiate a new relationship with all the artificial forms of radiation we are constantly basting ourselves in.  

Desda Zuckerman created these meditations to help her students and clients create a mutually respectful relationship with radiation of all kinds from Cosmic to 5g.

Another brilliant colleague of mine, Barbara Musser invented an energy medicine protocol specifically for people that contract COVID19.  I find that it is helpful immune support at this time even if you do not have the virus.

Every Thursday at Noon Hawaii time from now until May 15, I will offer a one hour online Zoom class.  Every class we will do a meditation to Anchor your Presence in Your Physical Body Through Your Human Energy Structure.  This is to introduce you to your much larger self so you know where to apply the energy “shields” that tell radiation to go around you rather than through you.

The class will be by donation using PayPal or Venmo or Credit card invoice. No one will be turned away. All participants must sign up by texting me your email at 415-269-0885 by 11am Hawaii time Thursday.  

This is so I can email all participants an audio recording of the returning presence meditation and PDF documents that will assist them in repeating the other meditations until you know them by heart and can apply them anywhere (like outside the Big-Box store BEFORE you go in!).

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Fear is Safe (part 1)


Or: With this much horseshit everywhere, there must be a pony somewhere!


“Fear is Safe” is a direct quote from Richard Rudd, founder of the Gene Keys, but here is another: “Fear does not feel safe, but it is safe to feel fear”. This is the “Eye of the Needle” I am negotiating right now. How do I personally maintain calm when the waves of panic sweep through every person alive several times a day?


This newsletter has been delayed because every time I thought I’d finish it, the collective fear frenzy would rise another notch, trigger my fear of herd-insanity and I couldn’t find my truth.


This is my story. May it help you on your own journey through life as these scary, brand new events unfold at lightning speed. Look for part 2 next month…I’m sure I’m going to have a lot more material by then!


At this time a year ago, I was mostly done clearing out the three infections I had gotten from a tick bite the previous summer, (not a month after returning from my first visit to Maui). I remained quite determined to move to Maui and at the same time, I was fearful that I didn’t have what it took to overcome the obstacles to getting there. I thought it would let up once I actually got here and recovered, but today, whenever I go out in the world, or read the latest instant update on my phone, or wake up at three in the morning to the unhelpful alarmist litany of my mind, I am still confronting fear.


Fear was my best teacher for the last year and a half. Lyme disease has almost the same kind of dread attached to it as the mutant coronavirus, the difference being the lightning spread of “the virus” and the constant drumbeat of fear pouring into everyone’s personal phones. In order to get well, I had to face my fear every day. In order to stay well, I have to face my fear every day. The fear of lyme last year taught me how to keep my equilibrium in the midst of physical adversity. Now, my fear of the collective, media-driven panic is teaching me to keep my equilibrium in a society in free fall.


First of all, equilibrium is not stable. It’s not a tightrope walk. It’s more like falling down skiing or surfing, getting up and falling down again and again until I learn to stay on my feet most of the time. There’s always a lurch of fear when I fall again, but my confidence grows each time I get back up and stay up a little longer. Eventually, I learn to relax into the fall too. Everyday, I thank my parents for teaching me to trust my body to learn what it needs to do, and lately I do this internally ten or twenty times every day.


One of the best things lyme taught me was how to slow down. We are all getting a crash course in that now. I was forced to pace myself, to reduce my time at work, even though I felt more stable working. Paradoxically my practice became more profitable and my self-limited schedule was always full.


This crisis is paradoxical in a similar way, I am forced to take a time-out when every cell in my body seems to be screaming at me to DO SOMETHING to secure safety in my near future. Most of my friends have already sent out offerings of support to their email lists and I commend them for being pro-active! For myself, I felt the need to pause long enough to find my truth again before writing to you.


One of my most astounding discoveries in the last three weeks was that I can trust even corruption and red tape. Corruption is the tribal response to the fear of chaos: clamp down, make stricter rules. Red tape happens then: illogical limitations to personal freedom in the name of public safety.


It took me an entire year to meet the requirements to practice Acupuncture in Hawaii. I had to complete 160 hours of “supervised practice” and write up 5 case histories of 10 sessions each, AND pass two tests for the national license even though I had been granted the National License which Hawaii requires (all this after 32 years of supporting myself as a sole proprietor Licensed Acupuncturist in California which has the strictest requirements in the country).


Because of bureaucratic complications and my own incredible resistance to the process, I had to take those two tests 5 days before we moved to Hawaii January 20th. Then they took 2 whole months to tell me I passed. During that time, I kept facing my fear that I wouldn’t be able to practice here because of stupid rules and my incompetence.


I got the news that I passed the tests and can now apply for a license the same week that the governments all over the world shut down. So consider this: If I had passed the test in time to practice when I got here and didn’t feel as much necessity to build up my online Energy Medicine practice, I would have been out of work now, just as I was getting started. Every obstruction, frustration and irritation was actually perfectly orchestrated to support me during this time of unprecedented crisis.


Much Love, Respect and Gratitude to you during this trying and magical time,


David Kitts


“Incredibly, when you trust in chaos and allow your environment to mutate you, rather than trying to control it and stay the same, the greatest magic is revealed to you — that in chaos there is and always has been a vast underlying transformative order.” -Richard Rudd

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First month on Maui: The Outside is the Inside is the Outside


You know the joke about the monk that gave the hot dog vendor $20 to “make him one with everything” and when asking for his change, was told “change comes from within?”

Maui is a volcano 15 miles from the most active “hot spot” on planet earth where lava continuously pours out of the depths of the earth to create new land. It’s the second Island in the tallest chain of mountains on Earth (measured from the sea-floor) in the middle of the largest expanse of Ocean. You could say the Hawaiian Islands are the “navel” of the Earth. The inside of the planet is always becoming the outside, more obviously here than on the continents.

Getting to and being on Maui has been a truly volcanic process, and the joke is on me. Any and all discrepancies and incongruities in the way I want to live and the way I actually live are in my face.

Despite Bren and I doing our absolute best to make letting go of California life a smooth transition, we both got stressed beyond our limits and got sick. The only thing more stressful I have ever done was help my wife die.

Nonetheless, we pulled it off and arrived at a beautiful, affordable RV with deck in a garden setting filled with birds, 4 minutes from the beach and 6 minutes from the most masterful bodyworker either of us have ever experienced. We bathed in the warm ocean and whale song, received transformational body healing, gorged on pineapple, papaya, passion fruit and amazing fish tacos and began to feel like we really did land in paradise!

Not so fast! We’d never lived in an RV so when it was a little smelly, we thought “well, no big deal, now we know we don’t want to live in an RV!” Then one night we came home from an amazing double healing session, feeling the best we had felt so far, and had to close all the windows because it was raining hard. And the RV stank. It was so bad we had to turn on all the fans just to be able to breathe enough to sleep. It was like sleeping in the last row of seats in a jet next to the engines and the toilets. We felt poisoned and betrayed and like we might get sick all over again.

Our landlords were mystified, said it had never been that bad for them, tried all sorts of deodorizers and pumped the tank but nothing worked. It wasn’t until I crawled under the RV naked and discovered a kloodgied grey water drain pipe was holding stagnant water and belching swamp gas back into the RV that I was able to create a proper angle to allow the water to drain and 90% of the stench cleared.

Another day Bren and I are waiting outside the port office to have a tow truck take her car to the mechanic shop. (Turns out the dock workers in California had killed both batteries in her electric car somehow, probably by leaving the key in for weeks). I started to complain about the petty tyrant that guarded the gate and had imperiously ordered us to “go away and come back at 1pm sharp.” At 1:03 the tow truck driver shows up and I go to start my car and it won’t start. It’s never done that once in 17 years. And it won’t start until Bren says “beg for mercy!” Boom, starts right up and has never been a problem again.

Here’s what I feel is really going on: We came here to live our dreams into reality and to share our process so others can see it is possible for them to do the same. We came here to start over and let go of all our old stories and our attachments to our tension and resentments about what appears to be “other peoples” negligence, stupidity, obstruction and unfairness. Any way I tell myself an old story that I am oppressed by anyone or any circumstance will IMMMEDIATELY become “truth” here until I see it as myself creating that “reality.”

If my dream is to live in harmony and abundance with the land, plants, animals and my neighbors, then that very intention will bring up every old attachment I have to my fear based stories of lack and oppression until I see that I am the source of creating my life that way. There is no “slack” here. You live your dreams or your nightmares. Fortunately, as soon as I see that, the good magic I came looking for starts to happen again.

Of course it takes time. The RV still smells. Bren’s car will be fixed with a new battery because it was still under warranty so it will be like a new car!……Life is a messy process and I can feel how living here is graduate school in how to live life. Every day brings new challenges and new gifts. Aloha spirit is a daily spiritual practice!!

Torus Photo courtesy of Rick Russell; Mathematical Creations

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Difficult Roads Often Lead to Beautiful Destinations


About a month ago, after I helped Bren through a difficult transition, she said “how do you always manage to get me through the eye of the needle like that?” Then and there, I realized that she had re-branded my practice!

So today the Sun was activating the 61st Gene Key “Inner Truth” (psychosis, Inspiration, Sanctity) in the 6th line (separation/self care/nature) and I took my psychotic Acupuncture exams on the windowless 7th floor of an office building with 5000 cars in the parking lot and 2 empty spaces to park in. To get in you have to get your palms and face photographed, have two forms of ID, turn out your pockets, roll up your sleeves and pull up your pant legs and put all your stuff except your ID and glasses in a locker. If you take a break, you have to do it all over again.

The 61 is a hexagram of the classic “Book of Changes” known as the “I Ching”, it’s the first one shown above. You’ll notice it’s “eye” is half as large as the second one.

I took the nearest locker which happened to be 27 and sat in booth number 27 for both exams.

The 27th Hexagram: “nourishment” (selfishness, altruism, Selflessness) is about generosity, starting with yourself. It’s “eye” is twice as large as the 61.

So I hope I have passed through the eyes of the two needles in the 64 hexagrams after a year of turning myself inside out to meet the requirements of the Hawaii state acupuncture board.

This last month of studying while trying to wrap up 42 years of living in the Bay Area and taking the test just 5 days before I leave because…well…it just worked out that way…

Was psychotic.

But perhaps now, I am a more humble and durable servant of the greater good? Perhaps I am sharper, wiser and have learned what keeping your equilibrium in the face of corruption really is.

50 “the cauldron” “gate of values” (corruption, equilibrium, Harmony) is my personal “evolution”. Through learning to trust in the essential goodness of all people, I am “designed” to function as an agent of social equilibrium. Corruption is transcribing the genetic need for social agreements through the lens of fear, which always results in (inadequate and often inappropriate) laws and outlaws. Trust in each other is the only path to social equilibrium.

And,

I’m 61.

Time I matured? Does an innocent ever mature?

Hopefully I’ll be able to contribute to the people of the islands like I’ve never done anywhere else before.

May it be so.